hello faggots.

I've moved.

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<3

Currently Listening For the Punx By The Casualties see related

Yeah so.
I'm going to try to get out of going to my dad's tomorrow.
Just gonna tell him that I'm having a party for Kate, since she just got off house arrest.... something like that. Hopefully we can all go over Brian's... and then... god, well, Saturday I have the secret plans. I'm kindof apprehensive though because I can't get caught doing anything else wrong or else I'm absolutely done, my mom is on edge about even letting me go out at all. And what we're planning is really risky. I want to get them to just do it next weekend instead... but they all wanna go Saturday. Idk. I don't wanna be a pain in the ass. But whatever. I wanna go sooooooo bad, but maybe I just won't, because I can't risk getting caught.

Yea but other than that.........
^__^
I <3 Ryan.

& my friends need to learn how to fucking GET ALONG!!!!!!!!!!!

Currently Listening The Very Best of Alien Sex Fiend By Alien Sex Fiend see related

Things are better now.

Zakk talked to Ryan about the whole thing, and then Ryan and I talked a lot too, and he believes me and we're good now.

My mom's letting me out of the house if I clean up and do chores and shit, which is fine.
She's been talking to my dad though, which is fucking bullshit, telling him everything.... this doesn't sound like a big deal, but my dad doesnt know me at ALL and her telling him I've been getting trashed and driving around with someone who doesnt have a liscense etc etc is just fucking lovely. She told him I was not busy on friday and now expects me to go over and sleep there (I never go over there, I hate it there. I have to put on a huge mask the whole time, totally be someone I'm not, and it gets really fucking tiring.), when I did have fucking plans and I'm gonna be freaking out because I can't smoke over there and just BLAHHHHH.fucking stupid. I'm gonna at least get out of sleeping there. whatever. bitchfit on my part, sorry.

Moving on....

I'm fucking sick of all this pointless petty drama shit that is going on in my friend group. People need to just shut up, and get along. It's getting really fuckin old.

Yeah so.... this weekend is going to be EXTRAVAGANT! hehe big secret plans that I cannot speak of. *dances*

hahaha
everyone who has limewire, go and search "gnar kill"
and download EVERYTHING hahahah, especially the Rake yohn songs and the erection song. XD it's excellent. [ excellent... that word makes me think of Eddie. I MISS EDDIE!!!! ]

diamonds gunsxx: i keep my dead fish in the bowl still
diamonds gunsxx: its just chilling there

toawesome2betrue: I have a shot gun
toawesome2betrue: And im sure thats enough to take your head off you stupid zombie

RiGoRmOrTiS210:
i don';t give a fo[cky

MaddOffroader89: dude that song,"what is love" i wanna listen to it next time i have sex

RiGoRmOrTiS210: hehe
RiGoRmOrTiS210: you zombie

diamonds gunsxx: i think i saw the light for .5 seconds

like an opiate x: Lol, I'm surprised you're not doing anything tonight, you're like Shelby the Social Butterfly

RiGoRmOrTiS210: my chest is so smooth

xXFight4UnityXx: where is the buuuuud....where is the buddd

diamonds gunsxx: shitz n pussiewussiez

RiGoRmOrTiS210: is it strogngnngng?
RiGoRmOrTiS210: *strong
RiGoRmOrTiS210: strong
RiGoRmOrTiS210: strong
RiGoRmOrTiS210: strongggggggggggg
RiGoRmOrTiS210: strange
xsicklittledoll: stroganoff
RiGoRmOrTiS210: beef

^_^ <3

Currently Listening Famous Last Words By Zeromancer see related

And now to top it all off
My boyfriend thinks I fucking cheated on him with 3 guys and doesnt want to talk to me even though  I never even did that in the first place.... I fucking hate myself. My mom can laugh real hard when I get sent to inpatient for trying to kill myself because I'm stuck in the fucking house drowning myself in my problems. fuck it.

fuck everything.

I'm probably never going to be able to hang out with my friends again.
I always have to go and fuck everything up.
All I need right now is to be around him, or just anyone to get my mind off this shit.
But what the fuck ever.
My mom just basically said that my friends are making me do all the bad shit that I do
And that they're all stupid and just all this fucking bullshit.
She doesn't fucking listen
I've told her so many time what my problem is and she doesn't fucking listen ever.
All my fucking shrinks say to call a friend or to do something distracting when you're feeling like this but I don't have a fucking phone or any means of talking to anyone because no one is online and I don't even know.
I'm just fucking sick of it. all of it.
I wish I would die right now I seriously fucking do.